I have so much anger in my heart today and no matter what I do... I just can't get it to go away. I know the Devil is pushing at me with full force today, and Lord I wish you would make him stop. For the past week or so I've been having dreams about a former bf, in every dream he tells me how he made a huge mistake and that I should be with him and not my husband. I argue with him, and I always wake up with tears out of frustration and anger towards this person even though I know it's not really him doing this to me. I had HUGE feelings for this person, but not nearly as huge as the feelings I have for my husband. So for this past week all this anger has built up and I've taken it out on my husband... although there are days where he doesn't make it easy for me NOT to be angry with him. I'm just so frustrated and annoyed... and I can't take this anymore! I hate when my emotions get played with... especially when the Devil is involved. I could be wrong, maybe God is trying to teach me something, but I have yet to figure out what. I just can't take it.... I'm stressed as it is. Pray for me... pray that I will get through all this hectic and tiring emotional stress.

1 comment:

Janelle said...

Sarah I think it is INCREDBILY brave for you to even share this, to "put it out there". I too have struggled from time to time with a VERY similar situation. I am so proud of you for realizing that these thoughts and feelings are unhealthy and for taking EVERY thought captive as stated in II Cor. 10:5. I will be praying peace of mind for you, and if you just want to talk about it sometime you know where to find me! I love you and I totally know that you were created for Justin and he for you. Don't be discouraged. This too shall pass!!!