We made the decision to wait until our first ultrasound to announce, but I was still hesitant because in the back of my mind I kept thinking that this couldn't be real... we couldn't have gotten pregnant so quickly. So I talked to J about having our favorite photographer, Brandi Clemmons help us announce with some fun creative photos. I even wanted to wait until we reached the second trimester, but my sweet husband couldn't wait that long! Even after announcing I've still had trouble wrapping my mind around being pregnant again. I've struggled to accept that my little girl isn't going to be our only baby anymore, and in reality she ISN'T a baby anymore. Today however, it hit me. I am pregnant. My baby is growing, or really I should say my toddler AND my baby are growing and they are both healthy and I am overwhelmed with how incredibly blessed we are. I was so terrified that we would struggle again, and Elah would be so much older when we conceived... but my prayers were answered and my dreams came true and our little ones will be about 2 years apart. Just the way I wanted it.
I'm also amazed by how easily Elah is handling the changes... granted, she does act a little jealous some days and then there are days where she is clingy, whiny, and incredibly frustrating to deal with. But if you could see her kiss my belly, rub her hands where her baby is and say "love you!" it would melt your heart. I'm so proud of her, I'm slowly losing fear that she will struggle with a new baby in our family... I think she's going to love her baby brother and sister!
That's really all I wanted to say today... a little more actually, but I'm thrilled to say that I AM pregnant! :) Here's to 29 more weeks of being a family of THREE!

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